I have found myself asking the question "Why..?" alot lately. Why am I sucking at school so badly? Why does MY dad have to be sick? Why do I feel lonely even when I'm with other people? Why does God love me? Why can't I stop crying? Why do I trust people too easily?
No matter how many times I ask... none of those questions have answers. I am stuck in a rut right now. A big, bottomless hole that I'm falling down. I hang on to something for a while to stop my fall but it fails me and I start falling faster than I was before. It's extremely repetitive and exhausting and personally... I'm tired of it.
Once again I'm stuck in a place where I trust no one. I had healed but once again I'm broken. Trying to heal again seems pointless and not possible. I'm stuck with no where to go.
Praying for you, Casey. Pretty sure I can relate to just about every single thing you said. Love you.
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